Goin' to Augusta.

Georgia, that is.

My life is a succession of awkward moments.

I'm hoping to be leaving tomorrow for Georgia to visit Andy with Sarah and Curtis tomorrow... we'll see how that goes. I'm kinda anxious... in a bad way because I just had to buy a new phone and I really don't want to spend too much money especially when I'm just about to apply for a new visa... it's all just cutting it uncomfortably close. I think quitting Kroger was a bad idea.

Stupid hindsight.

Some people have asked me how I find the music that I do... to that I answer with an honest, "I don't know." I just get lucky I guess... I browse music sites and listen to all the free music (because I am poor) I find. Well, I'll throw you a bone. Check out "Deep Sea Suit." I like it a lot.

I'm babysitting Celia Tate right now. I've never actually watched real babies... always just kids who are for the most part self sufficient and just need a little attention and a little bit of a guardian angel (because they would practically kill themselves if someone wasn't watching). Babies are kinda cool.

At the moment in my life, I think that God is trying to teach me something... I don't know what it is, but that's probably because I'm not listening... just kinda noticing that he's tugging on my sleeve saying... something. I was reading a couple of friend's blogs, and I was seeing how much God is doing through them, and I think I'm almost listening right now.... I just gotta figure out how to pay attention. Or maybe He's just preparing me for something. I dunno.

Celia Tate (a.k.a. babytate) is the sweetest baby ever. Even when she cries... cause she doesn't have an earsplitting screech... kinda like a muffled gurgle cry. Love it. I like babysitting because it gives my day some purpose. I don't sit around my house all day.

Sarah's birthday was yesterday! Big One Nine... only there's nothing really special about nineteen... other than it being your last year as a teen... you don't get any cool privileges or nothin. But it was cool cause I went to Sarah's house and hung out with her new puppy, Opie, and her family. We went to Shogun(s) afterwards and it was tasty.

And I don't know what it is, but I seriously miss all the Brits lately. Maybe I just miss the homeland...

"Hey Meaghan, wouldnt that be cool if I were in Franklin right now?"

uh... Liz is home! ...and... I'm so excited.

Anxiety!

He will feed his flock like a shepherd. He will carry the lambs in his arms holding them close to his heart. He will gently lead the mother sheep with their young.
Psalm 40:11

He will carry the lambs in his arms close to his heart. Through all my inevitable breakdowns and hysterical fits I throw when talking to God, I fail to notice that God's clutching me to his chest, and I'm too preoccupied to feel his heart beat for me.

But those who hope in the LORD will remember their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary; they will walk and not grow faint. [....] So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God, I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous hand. [....] I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands.
Isaiah 40:31; 41:10; 49:15-16

I'm just gonna take it one day at a time.

It's Gonna be Alright

God above all the world in motion
God above all my hopes and fears
And I don't care what the world throws at me now
I'm gonna be alright

Hear the sounds of the generations
Making loud our freedom song
All in all that the world would know Your name
It's gonna be alright

Cause I know my God saved the day
And I know His word never fails
And I know my God made a way for me
Salvation is here

Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here
Salvation that died just to set me free
Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here
Cause You are alive and You live in me

Salvation is Here | Hillsong United


Sometimes one just needs to hear these words.

I'm that one, and that time is now.

Sara Haywood, I love your heart. I wish I could just keep a pocket version of you with me wherever I go, but I suppose late night phone calls would suffice as well.

I miss everything about England.

Well... almost everything... I do not miss prawn cocktail flavored "crisps."

at all.

It was cold tonight... 65 degrees, man. I'm so freaking excited. I love Autumn with all of my heart. I cannot wait for October.... that is my favorite month because good things happen in October.

I babysat Celia Tate Monday. She's a hoot.

Ashley and I danced in a parking lot last night...

Sarah's birthday is this weekend.

Did I ever mention I actually no longer work at Kroger? As of a week today, I clocked out for the last time. How does it feel not having a job, you ask?

BRILLIANT.

Whadya say?

Well... I apparently suck at sleeping... or at least I suck at getting to sleep...

I'm ready for whatever God wants right now. Hopefully this is not a late night feeling of fatigue mixed with giving up, but a true preparedness that God has given me. Only time will tell.

I really do miss people... who knew that the distance would suck so much? I mean, there are phones and internet, but it's not really the same. I want to hug people and just be with them in person to laugh and talk. I miss my LifeGroup.

Speaking of LG's I'm an apprentice LifeGroup leader now. Amy Haywood and I share a group of 6th grade girls... they are obnoxious... they are rude... they are frustrating... they are loud... they are a handful... And I love them. I don't know what it is, but I'm drawn to them, no matter how distracted they are... and I'm fully aware that this will be one of the biggest challenges in my life... but I can't even begin to know what it would be like without them and I've only spent an hour with them. Maybe if I don't go to England, this is what God wants for me, and I'm completely okay with that. I do know that they will be missed dearly if I do get to go.


I say bring it on.

I'm Great!

How are you?

This weekend was amazing. There's too much to remember. I like it that way. I'd much rather not remember everything I've done, than answer "What'd you do this weekend?" with another, "Oh, nothing really."

Sarah's brother, Andy, was home for the weekend, so his friends, Sarah, and I did as much together in the time we were allotted. Liz came home, but I didn't get to see her but for 5 minutes at Steak & Shake (my third visit of the weekend). I'm hoping to go visit her for a weekend.


This movie was okay. It was not like anything I've seen before, but I've lost appreciation for movies that end happily just to appease the audience. I suppose from one angle, it did, and from another, it didn't. The thing I have to remember is that for some people movies are kind of an escape from reality, but I don't like that because people confuse taking a two hour vacation and replacing reality with fiction. I like realistic endings that have meaning that don't confuddle the mind.


Hey, Liz, ... hey ... I miss you too.

I work 8 and a half hours tomorrow... as a bagger... dang.

Meg is tired of a lot of things.

She's extremely tired of phones and internet and things that go unresolved. Too bad that seems that's how life goes a lot of the times.

She is not, however, tired of not working... which is what she is not doing tomorrow, thanks to Amber for taking her shift.