i wish i was normal

i wish i was normal

o the summer days of glory are soon upon us.
for some more than for others.
school has sucked me dry
to junior year i say good-bye
and good riddence
yay for being seniors.
but summer is a trying time.
a time to see who are your real friends,
who will forget and neglect you.
and who will kidnap you and take you to your favorite places.
a time to see if what you say you believe is what you really believe,
or if it's what you do when it's a convenience.
yay for being seniors.
i know that this will be the last year i will see most of my friends,
so i will continue to make it the most.
i've never really let anyone get close to me.
maybe that's wrong with me.
i always say that i do not care what others think of me,
but that only applies to people i do not know very well.
i think that people will eventually find out i am not all that,
and will find newer and better friends.
i feel the constant need to be "cool."
i don't get attatched.
yay for being seniors.
i've searched for 17 years to figure out who i am.
i've finally found it.
i'm a tomboy, but i am girly.
i'm sensative, but i am sarcastic.
i'm shy, but i am outgoing.
i'm a sinner, but i am God's child.
i wish i was normal.