theSideWalking

tonight was challenging.

bottle rocket crash course was good. i enojoyed it.

the meeting however, was hard. i really want mitch to get his passport. it wouldn't be the same without him. i had to tell everyone my baggage, so they could pray for me. that was hard. i hate crying in front of people, especially people i don't know. so i told them, and i cried. i didn't know i would otherwise i would have warned them and just not said anything. i think it's because i don't ever like to talk about my family financial problems. i like to joke about them because i don't want to burden my friends. i don't want to be seen as some one who is depressed all the time because that is not me. i like to be upbeat, but that's not always me either. i put up a front a lot of the time. i don't like to talk about them because i know i will cry. it happens all of the time. that's the only thing i ever cry about. and i HATE crying. a lot. but i am thankful for my friends who really care about me and will let me just talk to them about it.

we leave tuesday. i am too excited.

i have a new obsession with the temptations. i love them so much. i wish i had a cd with a crapload of their songs.

"i've got sunshine
on a cloudy day
when it's cold outside
i've got the month of may."