Dang.

Whatever.

"So this is love"

After a day at work and a car adventure with Sarah, I had a chance to watch the beauty that is Garden State with Rachel. If I could marry a movie, this one would be my life long partner. I love every single thing about this movie... except the hotel peep show... that was awkward and wrong.

The Office

This show is freaking hilarious. This is the kind of funny you have to think about and notice the small things. Ricky Gervais is a legend. He plays David Brent (the boss), and he does a such a good job of making the audience cringe with embarrassment. Mackenzie Crook (Gareth) leaves the office with awkward laughter. Poor Tim (Martin Freeman) and Dawn (Lucy Davis) don't have right timing. I love everything about this office and I love both seasons and the Christmas special. I love the Christmas special the most.

This US version is also knee-slappingly funny. It's more slap stick, but it's great. Dwight is amazing and Jim and Pam also do not have the right timing. I almost wrote this show off because the first season was almost verbatim to the first series of the UK version, but finally left the nest in season 2. The show still follows a blurred guidline from the UK version in all the major changes, but has a mind of its own.

I'm guessing the fourth season of The Office (US) is going to be the last because they can't drag out the Jam relationship for too long without the show going stale. I can't wait until Jan leaves the show. She was okay as Michael's boss, but when she became a psycho sex freak she weirded me out. Her character needs to leave. It's bitter sweet that Ryan left; I never really liked him much, but he was funny. I can't wait for the season premier... even though I won't be here... thank God for the internet.

The family is leaving tomorrow.... I'm looking forward to the silence.

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

Meg done got her self grajiatd yesterday.

I'm excited.

After graduation I didn't feel any different. I went swimming; then, I came home and had a gathering of friends and family for a few hours. It felt like a birthday party with a buffet in my dining room. Today, though, was when it all hit me. I was running across town to Brentwood's graduation to watch Sara and a few others graduate, and then, to CPA's graduation to watch Lizzy and a couple more graduate. That's when it hit me that this is real and I won't be going back to the halls of Centennial High School ever again.

It's odd. It' really refreshing. Grade school was beyond stale.

The crazy thing is that through 13 years of education, I still don't really know what I want to do with my life. I know I'm going to leave it up to God, but I don't have any special talent or nack for anything. I'm just kinda mediocre at everything. I like making friends, but that's not going to pay the bills unless I was to get some very generous rich friends. Hopefully if and when I get married my husband has a bit more direction in his life.

One more transition to go until I will mercilessly be thrown into the real world and am forced to settle with something, though I'm prolonging that transition by going to England-- which as of now I have a little under $3,000 out of the $5,000 I need to raise, so things are looking good.

Prayer is a requested support, and if you feel like donating a buck, I won't tell you no, but the prayers are most important to me.

At World's End

SO so very good. A couple cheap laughs that were placed in there that I admittantly did laugh at, but it felt a little bit out of place. Very unexpected ending that I liked a lot. It left it open for a fourth movie, and I can't say that I'm excited. I just don't want it to end up crap. It did a good job of tying in the other two films very well. I was impressed.

If this is true... I honestly don't want to see the fourth one. Not because it's Orlando Bloom, but Will Turner is an essential character to the POTC plot. If it wasn't for Will, Elizabeth, and Jack there would be no POTC. Without one of those characters it would feel empty and incomplete.

I also have to say that I wasn't to impressed with Elizabeth's role in this one either.

The Departed

I love this movie. Go watch it... unless you don't like violence or swearing.
Mark Wahlberg adds some hilarious comic relief, and Nicholson is a gangsta til the end.

Check out the trailor here.

I'm Back

With the rest of my life starting, I figured this was a good time to pick this blog back up.

Today was my official last day of school. Went to take my physics exam, and left 2 hours later. Boo Ya.

All the family is coming this weekend. I hate cleaning. Dang graduation.

I was rereading all my posts and was surprised at how much God has directed my life in the past year. Certain things I worried about took care of themselves; I find myself looking back and laughing.

Hopefully that's the same this time.

I have to raise $5,000 to be able to go to England this fall. I want $6-7,000 in case there's something random I have to pay for. You never know. I won't stress this time.

I'm always talking about how great this next year will be, but sometimes I think I am pulling the wool over my own eyes because it's not going to always be easy (if easy at all).

The things I'm going to miss the most next year:
Rachel
Sara
Charis
Traci
Nichole
Kara
My Church
My Family
My Dog
The Weather
Driving
My Room
American Food
Feeling At Home


Matthew 6.34
Jeremiah 29.11-13

Sometimes things are Different From what We Want.

Then, on a completely different note, there's always White Ninja.

Lost

I've lost a lot of things recently.
I am absent minded.
Too much so for my own good.

Dead Bunnies

Grade A material.
I've been laughing out loud all day.
People think I've gone mad.
It's hilarious.
Then, BAM!
It's serious.
Currie doesn't come off as "holier than thou" either.
It's not a self help book.
It's not a you are terrible book.
It's not a cheesey book.
It's a conversation.
I've almost finished it in one day, with school and work.
It's just so good.

"The Beauty of Grace is that it Makes Life Not Fair"

So I constantly think I've got this whole following God thing down, but then something happens, I'm thrown off course and I feel like I'm lost with no way home.

A lot goes on in my life that I don't really care to share. I'm not a sharing person when it comes to my life. I keep it to myself. And it's not like I'm about to change that on here, so don't get your hopes up.

I just find myself saying that certain things aren't fair, but in the back of my mind, I understand, thank God it's not. I don't mean that in a cheesy, "Aw, my friend got this and I didn't" kind of thing. I mean that in a "I can't do anything about this, and I'm so confused" kind of way. There's a constant acceleration of annoying thoughts that go through my head that make me feel like I live the hard life. Financially, emotionally. I mope around and don't do anything all day. I know there are people worse off than me, but for some reason, I just don't care.

Frankly, it's pathetic, and it disgusts me. Forget that.

So it's time to practice the patience that I don't have (it's a virtue you know).

On another note, I just spent $84.04 at Borders. For the life of me how did that happen?! Oh... wait... because I wasted twelve of those dollars since I had to buy the hardback version for school because they were sold out of paperback, and it's my fault for not getting it sooner. Crap. My purchase included:

Kite Runner: Kahled Hosseini (obviously the school book)
Captivating: John and Stasi Eldredge
Waking the Dead: John Eldgredge
Dead Bunnies: Brian Currie

So I've got loads of reading ahead of me, including How to Read the Bible for All Its Worth by Gordon D. Fee and Douglas Stuart of which I borrowed from Jacob Strother.

And apparently I didn't have to work today, instead I have to work tomorrow... what a pleasant surprise.

I'm out.

New Age

It's crazy when you finally understand something.

You've heard it all your life, it makes you numb without you realising it. You hear it and you shrugg it off.

But there's something magical (yea, that's right, magical) about understanding something for the first time.

And there's something beautiful about God's affirmation.

It is the living word, and God does listen to me. God does interact with me. I just have to listen. I don't feel good enough because I'm not- I never will be.

That's what Jesus is for.

hey blogosphere,

i have no friends!

"That kind of myopic, 'it's all about me' vision, is the crippling by-product of not knowing who He is and who we are not"

Something occured to me while I was eating my turkey today. Not that I'm thankful for anything in particular, or even thankful in general. Don't get me wrong, I am so thankful about loads of things, but that wasn't it. Not this thanksgiving.

I sat and I listened, I mean really listened, to my parents talk about their lives before they met each other and when they did meet each other. It was just weird.

Who thinks about their parents before they were married?

Mine didn't come into existence until my birth. Suddenly 2 adults and a two-year-old boy came into existence right when I was born. In fact, that's when the world started, I may add.

The history books? Not real. Other countries? Not real. Other states? Not real. Other cities? Not real. Other neighborhoods? Not real. Other houses? Not real.

Now I know they are actually real, but I live in the mindset that of course those things are real, but I never think about them as real. If they don't directly relate to me, that's just a sideshow as to what's going on in my life.

"Lately It Just Seems To Me"

like we've got the letters A.D.D.
branded into our mentality
we simply can't focus on anything

Maintain Consciousness | Relient K

Haven't blogged in 2 or three weeks, and a two post day?!
I know, the universe is upside down.

Lifegroups was a big help tonight.

Don't worry about your future. God has plans for you.
Do not brag about your future. You do not know those plans He has for you.
Pray and spend time with God, and He'll tell you.

My only problem is that I cannot focus.

I don't have a huge problem with trust.
I don't have a huge problem with having to know why.
I don't have a huge problem with rebelling.

I swear I have ADD or ADHD or sommat.

...which is daft.

What? Free Time?! Seriously.

Long time no blog.
I've been meaning to.
I just have a life now.
It's weird, I'm telling you.

The flight back from good ole Teesside (rather manchester since that's where we flew out of) was good. Pretty much slept the whole way. I miss everyone, but mainly I miss going into the schools and talking to the kids, and I miss the work. Sure it was tiring, but it was a good kind of tiring if ya know what I'm sayin'.

Life has not exactly slowed down.
Life has not exactly gotten any easier.
Life has not exactly become any kinder.
Life has punched me in the face.
I'm missing a few teeth and have a black eye.
Not really, but you know.

I'm enjoying life more now.
Taking time to enjoy the little things.
Talking to friends.
Hanging out with friends.
Sitting on the computer doing nothing.
Sitting and doing nothing.
It's beautiful.

My last post is the most emo thing I have ever read much less written. Good gracious.
Wow, a lot of life has happened since my last post.
Insane.
I need to update this thing.
Maybe a new template if I am ever extremely bored again.
Most likely not.
We'll see.

Depression

It sets.
One more day.
Sad.
Tomorrow will be good.
Still sad.
I will miss my friends.
My best friends.

:(

Teesside, England, UK.

Eat it, suckas.

Anyway, this trip has been better than last year even. I mean, it's a little more hectic, but it's easier to talk to people I already know people.

It's beautiful.

My host family is so cool. I really enjoy staying with them. In fact, I will be pretty sad to leave.

But really, I should be here next year, so it will be sad, but I will be back, and that should keep me from crying huge emo tears.

I am seriously not emo though.

Yes, it is 3:21 AM.

No, I am not going to sleep this morning.
Really?
Yes.
Crap.
See you tomorrow.
Totally.

The Hardest Part is Getting Started

Bring on the caffine.

Oh my God, I am going to England tomorrow. Tomorrow.