SUCH a good movie. I loved it.

I bought The Departed and the first season of The Office (US). It was worth it.

I've also realized that I don't want a relationship anytime soon. I don't want the responsibility, nor do I have the time or effort for one. So for now, I'm staying single for as long as I can stand it.

Happy Birthday, Rachel. You are finally 18. You are also in Europe now. Lucky jerk.

Everything is clearer.
I love God.
I love life.
I love music.

I hate Kroger.



His music makes me so happy.

The Deep Understandings of Shel

You've been up on that diving board.
Making sure that it's nice and straight.
You've made sure that it's not to slick.
You've made sure it can stand the weight.
You've made sure that the spring is tight.
You've made sure that the cloth won't slip.
You've made sure that it bounces right.
And that your toes can get a grip --
And you've been up there since half past five
Doin' everything...but DIVE.


The Diving Board | Shel Silverstein

It's 3 AM

why am i not asleep?
i don't even know.

Visa stuff sent off today. Well... technically yesterday.

This is it. I'm not applying for a new one if I don't get it.

You know that inner shoulder bone thing? My left one sticks out more than the right. Is this okay?

Life

is interesting.

I found my phone.
I got a lap top.
I'm ready for summer to be over.

Unwanted

This is one of those days I feel that way.

Since my last post I've been to Chicago and back... for my fourth and last time. It was a good trip, but I'm very glad to be home. I don't know how I'm going to cope next year. I like coming home too much.

My beloved camera finally broke from all the abuse it's been handed. Hopefully it can be fixed... I don't want to deal with buying a new one... and I don't want to buy a new one. On the upside I got to use the church's polaroid camera throughout the week and I got some wicked pictures.

I'm changing my web address... further notification later. Also, I do not like my blog design anymore... I need a different picture.

Speaking of Chicago, I went to the British consulate to turn in my Visa application. "Come back at 2:30 and I will let you know my decision." So my mother and I came back right at 2:30. "What's your name? ... Oh, please wait over there for a few minutes." So I did. This can't be good. And it wasn't. I got rejected. That's right. Only because I applied for the wrong visa and a couple of other technical details- but still... I got rejected. "If you apply for the right one, I don't see why you wouldn't get accepted."

Moral of the story: If you are going to England for anything other than simply visiting, don't waste $450 on a visitor's visa because you won't get one.

So my life is again at a standstill and I hate waiting rooms.

Life Update

Well... as you can see the blog is undergoing graphic update... it'll be a while before I can finish it.

I still can't wait to quit Kroger. I'm still stressed.

I've started working out. That helps with the hatred of Kroger and the stress.

Prayer helps with the stress as well. So if you would pray for me, that would be simply smashing.

Went to the lake Sunday. When I can find my camera cord, I will post pictures of the beach and the lake.

Well... things have been better... the beach was great. More on that later.

Kroger

Uscan... the worst place to work. The customers are by far the most impatient people- that's why they go to Uscan in the first place. Then, something goes wrong. Then, they aren't even people anymore- just irritated masses of carbon.

Express lane... c'mon. You know it's the express lane. Just because you unload your groceries on the conveyer belt, letting me start your order, and then, suddenly looking up to see the sign doesn't mean I don't notice that your Kroger card is worn out beyond belief. "Oh, I didn't know this was the Express..." does not fly.

Just because your kid is crying and screaming doesn't mean you should get them whatever they want. It just means you need to leave the premises immediately.

Yes, that lane is open. That's why there is someone standing in front of the register. And yes, I do need your ID for beer. I don't care if it's an inconvenience for you to have to go out to your car. It's an inconvenience for me to stop what I'm doing to scan your alcohol because you went through a 17-year-old's line.

No, you cannot pull one can/bottle of beer out of a package- it's not sold seperately. Go put it back. And no, you cannot get cash back paying with a credit card seeings how you aren't paying from your bank account. You have no cash to get back.

Update.

By the way did I tell you I decided to grow up? Yea... it's true.

I'm still addicted to Lost.

I've come to find that Cool Springs is an ironic name for this area. It's not cool, and there are no springs.

I am a person who likes to hang out at home. No, I don't like to go out all the time and do stuff. I work all the time, I'm too tired to go out. I miss just being at home sometimes. If that makes me boring... well... okay.

I'm too busy. I don't like it. I'll have worked a week before I get a day off.

$300 and something is totally worth it I guess.

This was an okay movie. I liked it, but there was a lot of scenes that weren't needed. I love that it was different and more realistic, and I appreciate that. I'm tired of movies that have a happy ending for the sake of having a happy ending. those fill my stomach with EZ Cheeze® to the point that it makes me want to vomit.

I also saw New World, though I can say that I will never appreciate Pocahontas ever again- it's also not a movie that I would readily volunteer for watching among the masses, but if anyone suggested it I wouldn't say no. It was beautifully filmed, but there was no real climax. I would watch it again several times, but it's not one of those movies I would watch all of the special features on.

So 40 hours this week. Yea, buddy. I have to close tomorrow by myself. I like customer service. It's very humbling and it's boring, but in a good way. It's boring in the way that I know I don't have to do anything unless there's a customer (aside from couting down all the tills), not in the way that I have to babysit 16-18 year olds with paperwork to do afterwards.

Here's something I know all will appreciate: Today on my lunch a man in his fifties drove right in front of me. He obviously thought he was a stud because he was leaning back- one hand on the weel, and one hanging out the window- and he was rockin out and singing to "Dontcha Wish Your Girlfriend was Hot Like Me" by who I believe to be the Pussycat dolls. He looked over at me and I started laughing. I was later informed that he was a carnie. This was the cherry on top.

And Aparently I Got a Raise at Work...

...yessssssssssssssssssss.

So a kid backed in to me today at Sonic... and I mean the kind of back up into me that deals with cars. That was crazy. No real damage though. That was good. It was my brother's car.

On a completely different note, I do not believe how some people can be complete, illogical idiots. They make me want to scream out of frustration.

Hokay Here's the Deal

God really knows what He's doing.
Amen.

Home.

I hung out with old friends yesterday. Friends from freshman year. Ben, Rachel, and Joe. We went to Pinkerton park (a place I seem to visit a lot) and then to downtown Franklin and chilled. It was really good to hang out with them... it was almost like closure. Start school with an amazing group of friends, and then, end school with an amazing group of friends.

Things haven't changed. We all look the same. Different hair cuts, taller, and different voices (in the boys of course).

I'm going to miss a lot about franklin this fall. And Kroger will not be one of them.

And I'm still addicted to Lost.

I'm hooked.

And I positively love everything about summer.

I'm being trained in customer service at work.... it's too early to tell if this is a good or bad thing.

These are fantastic games. Hours and hours of entertainment. Whoever thought of these games are probably beyond rich right now. My hat is off to them for numbing the consumer into the mindset that looking like an idiot is fun.

Hey... whatever works, man. It sure worked on me.

So yesterday I went to the park. Was an adventure.

The summer's getting stale quickly. It's only been 4 days and I'm already tired of hanging out all the time. This week I'm going to work 40 hours... and I'm being trained in customer service in which I'm excited, but at the same time-- not. I will mostly have something to do all day. 8 hours a day at Kroger? Lord please take me home now. Oh well... in 2 months I will be able to make $2,000 so I can't really complain.

I'm looking forward to Chicago this year. It is my most favorite church trip. I love everything about this trip. The kids, the questions, the looks, the festivities. Everything.